Still waiting

I still don’t know what’s going on with my body. I am almost 7 days late (in another 40 minutes). I’ve had two negative tests, but that doesn’t mean much. I was super stressed around the time I should have ovulated. If stress delayed that, then everything would be pushed back. So…I might not actually be late yet which means two things. I am still expecting AF (Aunt Flo) to come around any moment, and a negative test isn’t conclusive.

I woke up nauseous this morning but wrote it off to sinus drainage during the night. That usually goes away once I eat something. The nausea came back tonight though around dinner and it’s stuck with me most of the evening. My tummy is just all out of whack. Based on how I feel, either AF will be here in the next 24 hours or something way out of the ordinary is going on.

I’m a lot more tired than usual considering I’m doing less than usual. I’m nauseous. I still feel bloated.

I decided that I’m not going to take another test until I’m two weeks overdue, and that’s 8 days away (next Saturday). If that still comes up negative and I don’t get AF, then I’ll go to the local clinic for a blood test.

In some ways I’m still very unhappy about the prospect. The timing couldn’t be much worse (giving birth in the middle of the semester), the father has too many problems, and I don’t have any familial support up here. On the other hand, I’ve wanted to be a mother for a long time. To some extent, I’m getting excited about the possibility. I’m thinking about sewing my own maternity and baby clothes while I have free time over the summer, considering baby names… The whole situation doesn’t feel so cut-and-dry anymore.

I think this next week will be a long one unless AF stops by.


~ by Kj on June 4, 2010.

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